For some of us, traditional meditation only leads to exacerbated symptoms of depression and anxiety. It can feed the loops that support PTSD.
(There are some PTSD specialists who actually say that meditation should be avoided unless it is done with some supervision and with a movement component.)
And for some of us, the way yoga is taught through repeated forms and static holds can do the same thing.
I was/am definitely one of those people. Yoga was okay for me but it was still a space that could be somewhat dangerous for my mind, depending on where I was on my own personal depression/anxiety spectrum at the time.
Kundalini Yoga was the least dangerous of all for me as it is full of more spontaneous type movement. I often tell people that Kundalini yoga did not heal me but it kept me from getting worse and it prepared me for what I actually needed… the stuff I now teach that is more dance based.
When I dance or engage in movement play and experiments, when my bod is busy solving some sort of movement "problem" (and it doesn't matter if you're standing, on the floor, in a chair...)... that is when I will sense my way into the fertile ground of my own individual emptiness and my felt connection to something larger.
That is what The Peony Method is all about.
I can’t ever figure out how to explain what happens internally. Both of these statements are simultaneously true:
1. “It takes me out of myself and into spaciousness.”
2. “It grounds me into my nowness of being.”
Both/and.
I know I am in an internal space of truthfulness when I am practicing these methods, because if I feel at all confused about ANYTHING IN MY LIFE, I hear my authentic voice and get immediate and right answers as soon as I fall into the space that one and two up there are describing.