Tirta Empul Temple, Bali, a temple to water
My anger is getting way too consuming, and I’m sure I’m not alone but I can feel it doing damage to my body and spirit and mind at this point. So…
I’m a Scorpio. For most of my life, I’ve thought I was a fire sign. I know… whatever. I can be dense.
I sure can ACT like a fire sign. I can be assertive ((cough)). I don’t fear debate or argument. If I feel like someone is being treated unfairly, I come in with guns blazing. I’m protective of people and animals. I want JUSTICE. I don’t hesitate to burn something down that is no longer serving me.
And yet… most of that? Makes me uncomfortable if I am being honest, which I am, because I am. ((ha))
There are too many reasons to get into that explain WHY I am like this but this Fire Me is not my truest self and thus the discomfort.
I am, after all, a WATER sign.
Even if you don’t like the astrology stuff, I am connected to water and always have been.
I’ve had two near drownings but still go back in.
I taught myself to swim in an Olympic sized (and very busy) pool when I was barely six years old and had no adult supervision.
I live on a great lake and visit her multiple times a week. I think about moving but can never get past the idea of not having this giant water presence in my life.
There is this soft, gentle body of water inside my own body that wants very much to be set free. I built a damn around that part of myself long ago — or experiences helped create that dam — and then I set a ring of fire ablaze around all of it.
Right now, as I seem to live and breathe toxic anger and rage over this government, this president, and then this awful handling of this awful virus, I finally feel like I am hitting my tolerance point for heat. I finally can feel that that fire is depriving me of oxygen.
So what to do? Firstly, to release this fiery anger self and second, to welcome back the flow of water.
Even if you haven’t long lived with this kind of destructive anger, you might be feeling it now, and so I thought I’d share some resources I’ll be using to work with water.
Primarily, of course, I’ll be doing things at the lake. Sitting with her, meditating on her beaches, and doing ablution practices when it gets warmer.
But here’s a WATER SALUTATION that I found. Yep, there is one! Who knew!?
I invited the Hindu Goddess Kali into my life many years ago and I wasn’t sorry for it (some people call on her and get a bit more than they bargained for). I’m going to consciously start working with her again. Here’s a decent article that includes some background about Kali and a starter sort of ritual (just writing and meditating) at the end. I approve of the follow up dancing.
And here’s a great pagan sort of simple spell that includes (if possible) a visit to a body of water.
Finally, this is a Sanskrit mantra to the healing powers of water.
I’d love to hear if you try any of this or if you create your own ways of calling forth your water nature.