Are you more aware of your head/brain than your entire body?
Dissociation...
I truly believe we are a culture of humans living on different points of a spectrum of dissociation.
Our culture is trauma inducing in its very makeup and the main way we cope is to exit our bodies. HOW we do this varies -- from alcohol consumption to the way we eat to TV to never moving to not listening to music (because it brings up FEELINGS) and on and on.
Before I started to dance again after I turned 40, I was one of the most dissociated people you'd ever meet.
I was blank in my eyes from my chronic depression but more than that...
I was a head being transported by a body that I did my best to ignore.
Or had learned to ignore.
I would go all day feeling angry and then realize I had NEVER PEED.
All these signals that bodies send... I just didn't hear them any more.
Here's the thing...
You don't just suddenly repair that.
I'm still working on it 11 years later at 51.
The other day I realized that EVERY SINGLE MONTH it's like I'm getting my period FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER because I can't remember SIMPLE THINGS...
Like, for example, my period actually EXHAUSTS me because I tend toward slight anemia on a good day. (And I thought I was entering actual menopause because of this disconnect too. That's another story.)
EVERY MONTH I think, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY AM I SO TIRED? I NEED SOME SORT OF MEDICAL INTERVENTION!
Then POOF! I'm not tired anymore and I go, oh, right...just had my period.
DISSOCIATION.
I still can forget to pee.
I still can forget to EAT or god forbid... drink water.
I STILL forget the basic thing I TEACH -- that if you MOVE, you'll FEEL BETTER. Your brain will be clearer. You’ll have energy. Your mod will be less dark even in difficult moments.
So how about you?
What does your level of dissociation look like? How does it play out? What can we do to stop this?
Because stopping this? It's key to EVERYTHING.
People who are dissociated are easily turned into cogs in the wheel.
People who are NOT dissociated are ACTIVE and they CREATE THE WORLD THEY WANT because they know their own power.